Frustration. Yep. That’s what I’m feeling this morning so that’s what you’re going to hear a little about right here.
I can’t help it. I really feel frustrated.
Lately, I’ve been playing with a deck of tarot cards. I’m NOT a tarot reader in any way, but that doesn’t mean I can’t intuitively read the cards. Plus, it’s fun!
So, most mornings I wake up early, go to my office (which is my sacred space) and meditate for a bit. Then, I get out my cards and start playing.
The thing is: it’s really not fun to play with the cards when they keep saying the same thing again and again!
And what do they keep saying to me?
Slow down. Stop DOING. Chill out and allow.
I’ve written two books now (Animal Lessons and Soul Contracts) that talk about those secret hidden negative beliefs we hold and the things we do to stop ourselves from experiencing those negative beliefs.
One of the negative beliefs I’m still working on is feeling 100% safe, supported, and protected in the world. Yes, I’ve come far on it, shifting it to the positive bit by bit (just like my books say), but I haven’t nailed it 100% yet – after all, it is one of my Soul Lessons.
And I’m sure that this will make sense to you – as a result of not feeling totally protected in the world I do, do, do. In other words, I’ve been behaving like the more I do, the harder I push, the better it will all work out, which will finally fully (yet erroneously!) create that feeling of safety. [To clarify, the feeling of security that I’m seeking really comes from within, not from what I DO.]
So, here I sit, with a Todo list a mile long, where for the past five months I haven’t taken a break and have piled too much on my plate. With these tarot cards telling me again and again to just CHILL OUT and be. Observe. Notice. Allow…
So, that’s why I’m frustrated.
What’s funny about this is that the Animal Lessons Book Club just ended this week (you can still sign up to watch all the videos by going here if you want) and one of the things I saw happen in that group is how difficult it is for pretty much everyone to chill out and allow.
Everyone wants to do.
Everyone wants that next step!
But what if that next step is not do DO but to watch. To notice. To just observe how it all works out.
It’s not about laziness (ie just letting everything fall by the wayside). It’s about observation. It’s about noticing. It’s about learning by watching yourself.
In the book club I found myself often bringing participants back to that place of slowing down and watching. But (ha ha on me again!) I didn’t notice that I wasn’t following my own (and the tarot cards, and my guides) repeated advice.
It’s wonderful to have goals and strive for something but perhaps it’s time to stop and take a look at WHY you have those goals.
Are you trying to prove something to yourself or others?
Are you trying to finally feel safe?
Are you trying to show the world (and probably yourself) that you’re good?
When my actions are driven by an internal need to feel secure, the results of my actions can’t achieve nearly what they could if my actions were driven by passion, excitement, and love.
So, for me today, I’m going to be sitting back. I’m going to take a look at the big picture. I’m going to not do, but just BE.
Give BEING a try with me!
Love and Light,