Read part 1 here. I’ve got the update on my psychic Jury Duty experience and it’s not what you think.
So, as I said last week, I had to report for Jury Duty this morning. I was wondering what would happen as I knew that “occupation” is one of the main questions in determining an appropriate juror. I had planned to tell the truth: I am a professional intuitive. I thought this might present a problem and I was looking forward to finding out.
At least, that was my plan.
Once the sixty or so of us (the potential jurors) were all settled into the jury selection room, the Judge filled us in on a few of the details of the case. The defendant was being accused of rape.
It didn’t occur to me that this case might not be a match for me due to my history of sexual and emotional abuse.
As the Judge read off the questions, asking the group to raise their hand if they had a, “yes” answer, I continued to sit there, actively engaged and interested in this process.
Finally, he got to the question, “Is there any other reason that you can think of that may prevent you from being unbiased as a juror in this case?”
I immediately raised my hand. As a psychic – how could I possibly be unbiased?
A few minutes later, all of the potential jurors were ushered out of the room so that we could wait until our number was called. Each potential juror would be interviewed by the judge with both sets of attorneys looking on and weighing in.
When my turn came up, I promptly took my seat next to the judge (but much lower, just like on TV) and turned to face the judge who was asking me why I had raised my hand on that one question.
“I’m a rape victim,” I heard myself say.
What?! What did I just say?? I’ve never said that sentence in my entire life. It was crazy that that came out of my mouth. Yes, I was raped and abused… but calling myself a “rape victim” wasn’t something I usually said.
Until the moment that popped out of my mouth, it had never occurred to me that this case might not be a match for me due to my history of sexual and emotional abuse.
When the judge asked me to explain what I was talking about, I filled him in on some of the details of the abuse I had experienced as a child.
And my eyes welled up.
I told him that I wasn’t sure that I could be unbiased because of my history, but I also wasn’t sure that I would be biased.
He was so kind. He said, “Well, we certainly don’t want you to feel upset while looking at pictures as you will have to look at pictures.”
I took a breath. Maybe it was over. Then he leaned toward me and said, “But I have to ask you. What is a psychic teacher and intuitive coach?”
After I very briefly explained, he asked me to go wait in a small room with the door closed.
No sooner had the door closed, than it was swiftly opened again.
“You’re free to go. You have not been selected.”
A feeling of relief spread through my body – but also a feeling of regret. Is this yet another thing that this childhood abuse will prevent me from being able to experience?
I’ve worked so hard to move past the abuse. To be a healthy, happy person. To note where the effects of the trauma still show up – and to address them.
But abuse is a traumatic experience and through this Jury Duty experience, I’ve now been able to find an area that I hadn’t yet addressed in moving into a place of healthiness around the abuse.
So, for that, I am thankful. I am thankful that I’m being given opportunities to heal again and again.
And I still look forward to the day when I get to sit on a jury (I’m guessing it won’t be on a rape case though).
Thank you to the many of you who supported me with your encouragement and thoughts about what my psychic Jury Duty experience would be.
This was definitely not the way I thought Jury Duty was going to go, but of course there is a lesson in everything!
Love and Light,
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