Three months ago I wrote a blog post about how my husband, Kevin and I were starting the P90X workout program. I thought this exercise program would give Kevin and I a new “thing” to bond over – as well as get my butt in shape. Plus, it sounded intriguing to leave the yoga behind for a while and trying something new. I remember thinking to myself “this will be easy and I can’t wait to get back in shape!” I was also secretly thinking “wow-my husband is so skinny – can’t wait to see some muscles on him!” (But don’t tell him that.)
We moved through the intense three-month program with surprising ease – because we were motivating and supporting each other. We would get up at 5am together, march out to the poolhouse and push ourselves hard for hour and fifteen minutes six times per week. Kevin became so much stronger. He developed man-boobs (the good kind). He got six-pack abs. (Nothing like a little six-pack to put some spring back into the step of a 22-year old relationship!) He even began examining his food choices more closely and created a week’s worth of brand new recipes based on what he thought would keep him most fit. The p90X program was clearly the exact right match for him in exercise. And this made me jealous.
I just wasn’t getting the jaw-dropping physical changes that Kevin was having. I wasn’t developing the cool muscles, my butt was in the same place and I was coming away from each workout missing that refreshed “Ah! I just worked out!” feeling. I started to realize that exercise isn’t just about developing muscles and a good butt, it’s also about the release that comes along with it. And if you are not doing the right exercise for your individual “Self” you will not get that release. Without knowing it, seven years ago when I began yoga seriously, I had actually “zeroed in” on the perfect exercise for me and since that time I had been quietly releasing pent up energy, frustration, anger and anxiety through it. The p90x, while perfect for Kevin, did not work for me.
So, in the end guess what? I am going back to yoga and Kevin is moving on to the next program in the P90x series called “Insanity.” Yeah, that doesn’t really sound right for me does it? Can you imagine me trying to release my anxiety into an hour long INSANE series of jump-tucks with thirty-second breaks? Me either. It’s not going to work. Of course this made me sad in the beginning because there was nothing I wanted more than to be able to do all of these fun things with Kevin – I had really loved this new piece in our relationship. But I now know that I must exercise in the way that best suits my body. I can’t force my body to love the p90x like Kevin’s does, but I can stay on the same workout schedule as him, we can both look at our food choices together now and we can celebrate each others muscles all while I am getting that wonderful “Ah!” feeling I’ve been looking for!
Danielle MacKinnon has been named an expert TV psychic medium, intuitive, animal communicator, and foremost expert on soul contracts. She has appeared on numerous radio shows, tv and taught along side some of the world’s most renowned psychics, mediums, healers and TV experts.