Self Doubt and Me

Recently, I experienced a several day period of self-doubt that was felt a bit like it wanted to overtake my life.

When I’m down, I tend to go way down. I avoid energy management, eating well, exercising – and sleep is not easy to come by. I think my husband would also say, I’m not awesome to be around at times like that.

During this “down” period, I was feeling abandoned by the universe – wishing for any message of support (which, when you’re eating badly, not exercising, not sleeping and avoiding responsibilities would be hard to receive anyway).

When I went to bed that night, it was challenging to fall asleep. At 3:15a.m. I woke up. I was lying on my left side, facing the edge of the bed.

It was dark, but immediately sensed someone crouched next to the bed with arms perched on the edge. Their chin, resting on their arms.

Oddly enough, I wasn’t freaked out.

Inside my head I heard, “We’ve given you all of this” and I saw a visual of a dozen beautiful, opaque, globes of light, each the size of a Christmas ornament, laid out across my chest.

goldenlightballssmThen, I felt this energy of love enveloping my whole body, as I continued to lay there in bed.

“You have everything you need to do what you came here to do, Danielle. See?” and the arms again gestured toward the gorgeous balls of light.

“We’re so excited to see how you do it! Can you do it? Here you go!” said the voice inside my head.

I slowly sat up in my bed, clear-headed and free of depression for the first time in a week.

I thought, “Well, of course I’m going to do it!” (Whatever “it” is – I still don’t know!)

Now, perhaps this was just a dream or maybe it was a vision from the universe- who knows?

For me, it was the reminder that, just like everyone else, I already have everything I need to explore, grow, and be in service to others. It’s all here, right here, right now – and it always has been.

All I need to do is to keep finding and following my passion – building and creating what makes my heart SING and I’m doing my job – the “it.”

That’s what that “guy” crouching next to my bed helped me to remember.

People ask me all the time, “how do I know if I’m on the right path?” or “How do I find my path?” To you, my answer is – just follow the passion.

The passion IS your path.

 

Love & Light,

Danielle

 

3 replies
  1. Ginger
    Ginger says:

    Your post really hit me this morning. I have found myself in the same situation and I am trying to move past it. Not taking care of myself and instead taking care of those around me has left me feeling overwhelmed. I am now trying to make myself a priority so I can make the changes in my life I have been waiting to do for so long. Thanks for this nudge!

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