Dwindling Protection

I know that things are as they should be.

But that doesn’t mean I really like how things are.

Have you noticed that your life is feeling a bit weird lately? I know this is a big question to ask in a little email, but I’m really asking.

Have you noticed that your life today is nothing like your life a year ago?

It just feels different right?

For many (me included), it feels a bit like the bottom is dropping out right now.

For some, that feeling grew throughout the year fed by outside events (like terror attacks and the US election) adding to this sense of unsteadiness.

For others, that feeling has come crashing in, in just the last few weeks.

It’s a weird place we’re in right now. We have this incredible opportunity to choose to grow greatly as individuals and as a group (this group of humans that we all come together to create).

I wish that choosing this growth was easy. I wish we could just say, “OK, I’m ready to leave that behind” or “Yes, I understand now, and that pattern is completely broken” but that can be very hard to do as we are so wonderful at putting powerful self-protections in place.

And, this feeling of insecurity, unknowingness, lack of ease that so many of us are going through right now – a lot of it is that our defenses (the protections we’ve built up over the years to hide our wounds) are starting to crumble. We’re all beginning to experience dwindling protection.

And that’s really uncomfortable.

Just super uncomfortable.

But I’m willing to go through that discomfort. I’m choosing to allow it to be as I embrace and comfort that part of me my protection has been hiding for years.

I know this is a weird, challenging, unsettling time for so many right now. I know that I don’t like it at all. But I also know that I must consciously choose it as this time around, this is what it’s going to take to get to that next level of peace within.

I’m willing to stop resisting and finally just allow myself go through this because the end result, I KNOW, is totally worth it.

Are you? Share your thoughts below.

Love and Light,

 

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26 replies
  1. Debbie UK
    Debbie UK says:

    Danielle you have hit the nail on the head again! No, this period is nothing like I planned and totally different to how I envisaged the end of the year.
    I am very ill; the kittens I thought were so right had to be returned…and already I see the reason: whilst this ill I would not have been able to care for them as well as my beloved Amber.
    I cannot be the support I wanted to be for my 95 year old friend for whom I was there, last year, through flu, and organising her husband’s funeral etc.
    But we got through it all together and had a summer that was full of laughter and sunshine and non medical trips out.
    If you want to give God/Higher Power a good laugh, tell Him your plans. (!) She/He has better ones lined up that I never thought of….

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  2. Nela Conde
    Nela Conde says:

    I understand what you mean, although my English is not very good. I’m learning!

    I also feel strange, and even in the wrong place. Not only for everything you say, but also for the difficulties that each one has. Personally, this year my lovely dog decided to leave. My dear Franchesca. A schnauzer who came into my life to be my teacher. Sometimes I saw her as a mother. Two months ago she left. This is not the first time, but this time it was different. This time, it hurts too much. This time, I can not let go.

    That, added to other events in my life, have made this year a true roller coaster. Pretending that everything is good, giving a good face to the world, to others, because people do not like to see sad people. But I’m sad, and I have to pretend to please others. Why? Why I can not live my sadness and give it the time it deserves? Why should sadness be bad?

    Yesterday, I read this:

    Your sadness does not say, “Please fix me, heal me or let me go.” It does not say, “Please get rid of me, show me your indifference, pretend I’m not here.” It certainly does not say, “Please shine on me so I can die!”
    Sadness does not come to punish you, or to reveal the ‘spiritual failure’ you are. Sadness is not a sign that you are far from recovery, awakening, enlightenment, even peace. The presence of sadness is not an indication that you have done something wrong.

    Sadness just whispers, “Can I come in? I’m tired, I want some rest. ”

    And you reply, “But sadness, I do not know how to let you in!”
    And sadness tells you, “It’s okay. You do not need to know. I am already inside”.
    And we bow to sadness then, we recognize how it has already been admitted, how is there enough space in us for it, how is it that we are never ‘the sad’, how is it that we are not occupied by sadness, Capacity for it; We are his space, his home, his salvation, his loving embrace; Not as a goal, but as our nature – the consciousness itself, already free.

    Do not heal yourself from sadness, allow sadness to heal you. Let me show you the way when you forget about him. Let me reveal to you the mysteries of love. Let me remind you of the immense heart you have, your determination not to separate yourself from any part of your old Being, that majestic Happiness that you danced when you were young.
    Your pain, your sadness, your doubts, your yearnings,

    Your thoughts full of fear: they are not mistakes,
    And are not asking to be ‘healed’. They are asking to be hugged. Here, now, tenderly, in the loving arms, healers of the present consciousness …
    – Jeff Foster

    Thanks Danielle, for the Love, for the Light.

    (One of my goals next year is to study your courses) <3

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  3. Gina M
    Gina M says:

    This post is very timely, as I’ve been finding most of your posts lately. I was just thinking that this holiday season feels very different from years past. There is something “off”. Like a pervasive feeling that something big and challenging is looming (asteroid?? haha)I am taking your pre-recorded SLAC course and I thought that maybe my sensitivity has been heightened and I’m sensing things more intensely, or at least differently. It is comforting to hear that there are others attuned to the “offness”.

    Thank you, Danielle. You came into my life when I was ready and needed you!

    Love and Light.

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    • Danielle MacKinnon
      Danielle MacKinnon says:

      Gina – I don’t believe it’s that something is “off.” It’s more that we are no longer fitting with the old stuff because we and everything within us is growing and changing and that’s super uncomfortable. It’s great to learn that you’re taking my SLAC class! Yes, as you open intuitively in that way – sensitivity goes WAY up! Oh – and I’m glad you’re liking my daily emails!
      Danielle

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  4. TH
    TH says:

    I just love reading your posts because you surprise me. Your candor is like a breath of fresh air. Yea, challenges beyond anything now in my life. Very uncomfortable. Nice way of putting it! Causes me to laugh! So yes, I am in agreement, riding out this fun wave of uncertainty and uncomfortable things and choosing to move to the next level. Yes! Thanks for your posts Danielle!

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  5. Leslie Joy
    Leslie Joy says:

    Thank you, Danielle for showing us your vulnerability.

    I’ve studied with multiple thought and spiritual teachers, and the moment they cease to be humble, we sensitives smell it, and lose trust.

    2016 has been nasty for so many, and for all as a collective, whether we/they ‘know’ it or not. The worsening situation in Syria has especially affected me somehow. I want to open my home to a family escaping terror and bombings, forced out of their home. I’m so sad to see the Obama family leave as our leaders, and example of decency.

    The energy management is a critical awareness, especially at this time of year, darkness, cold, etc. and holidays that are not joyful for everyone. So thank you for bringing the tools. More than what you have gifted to us though, your human -ness is SO appreciated. Love, Warmth, and Light to you and any person reading this!

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    • Danielle MacKinnon
      Danielle MacKinnon says:

      Leslie – I’m so happy you like the tools. It’s funny, when I committed to doing a tool every week, I didn’t think about the fact that that meant I would have to share 52 tools a year! Thank you for enjoying them and for sharing. <3

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  6. Shirley
    Shirley says:

    My little dog, Ruby, was hit by a car and died the other night. She was only 4 years old, I rescued her and was seldom without her. I had my BF watch her for a few days in total trust and always told him she had to be leashed when walking. Due to his negligence, she died.
    I’m inconsolable, in heavy grief, can’t stop crying, feeling so empty without her at my side, and most of all hating my BF for not listening to me about leashing her on walks. It could have been
    Prevented and she would be with me right now.
    I don’t know how to deal with this terrible accident and him now. I’m lost and depressed. I lost my little girl because of someone close to me not honoring my requests.
    PS. He is in heavy grief and guilt now as well.

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    • Danielle MacKinnon
      Danielle MacKinnon says:

      Shirley – I’m sending you love and light through this trying time. To Rudy as well. You may want to check out my video interview with Afterlife TV and Bob Olson. I talk a lot there about the crossing over of animals. You may also want to check out my Animals and the Other Side 2 class (coming in January 2017) where I answer questions to (hopefully) give some relief to those in deep grief like you are. Love to you and Rudy, Shirley. <3

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  7. Katie Young
    Katie Young says:

    Oh yes!!! It’s been some year. My father-in-law passed away, my work changed dramatically when the rescue I worked for moved 50 miles away, and then my beloved mother got quite sick and died suddenly, on December7, just as my plane was landing in Philadelphia. I have been in Philly for 3 weeks now helping my sister and next Tuesday I fly home with my mom’s cat. Fawn has never traveled and now he finds himself bound for Minneapolis and a new life with 8 other animal siblings. Upheaval has been the watchword of 2016. I’m choosing to let go and be changed, but it certainly hasn’t been what I thought it would be.

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  8. Lara Watson
    Lara Watson says:

    Thank you for your emails Danielle. I always learn something from them and look forward to reading them. I printed up the one with the daily affirmations about being surrounded by only 100% pure light and have been saying them every day. There is so much darkness these days and I don’t want to get drawn in.
    This year has been awful for so many people I know. Personally, I lost my boy Fee then a month later lost my boy Havoc. I went from 5 cats to three and I didn’t know what to do. A few weeks later a good friend died of a heart attack at 45. I feel numb. I don’t feel joy, excitement, pain or sorrow. Just nothing. This scares me because I used drugs and alcohol to hide my feelings for so long that I’m afraid that I’ve learned how to do it without substances. The losses have also brought up a lot of past stuff because I spent most of my 20s with this friend who passed. I try not to judge any of it. I believe everything happens for a reason and I trust in the Universe. I am staying open to lessons and growth and I appreciate your help with that. Thank you and blessed be.

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    • Danielle MacKinnon
      Danielle MacKinnon says:

      Hi Lara – I’m glad you like the daily emails. They help the most when you do them every day without missing a day because they build the energy. I’m sorry about Fee and Havoc. It’s so hard to not those you love physically with you. Keep up with your energy management and it will allow you to move through all the grief. Sending you love and light,
      Danielle

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  9. Genene
    Genene says:

    I am also feeling the discomfort. It’s Interesting that on January 1, 2016 I woke up feeling that 2016 was going to be the most incredible year yet–and it was. I felt great energies coming in, I made wonderful progress on some goals, I spent precious time with friends and family. Yet the year was also challenging, chaotic, at times filled with deep sadness (great quote about sadness posted by Nela). So much contrast that is urging me to stretch and grow into someone I’ve never been and can’t quite envision. So thank you for offering a forum where we can discuss and explore what the heck is going on!

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  10. JoAnn
    JoAnn says:

    Danielle,you are right this is a time of uncertainty and I have no clue as to what the future holds for me. My husband of 50 years passed the 20th of December last year and I have been trying to figure out who the heck I am.I am taking your prerecorded classes and I was repeating those wonderful confirmations daily but then all of a sudden,it seems I have given up on continuing with the classes and the confirmations but I know its because of the holidays and hopefully will get back into it after the holidays are over. It seems this time of year brings up so much sadness and missing those precious souls human and pet that have gone on before. I DO really enjoy your daily emails and thank you for taking the time to do this for us,you are so real and a breath of fresh air. I hope you and your family and all who come to this site a very Merry Christmas and a Healthy and Happy 2017.

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    • Danielle MacKinnon
      Danielle MacKinnon says:

      JoAnn – My suggestion is that you stop beating yourself up. Sometimes we lose our way, forget about our practice, and then, when the time is right, we simply come back to it. Your practice is waiting for you, whenever you’re ready.
      Love,
      Danielle

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  11. Donna O
    Donna O says:

    When I go to sleep at night I thank the Universe, my guides, the angels & God for all my blessings. I ask them to help me put my feet on the path to my greatest & highest good. I see footprints in my mind as I drift off to sleep. With them leading the way, I have no question about following the right path.
    I recently heard from a wonderful (?) man on the complete opposite coast from me. That would be a complete change for me if we end up dating.

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  12. David John gardiner
    David John gardiner says:

    Hi there… as I shared on facebook…. I feel that I am coming out the other side… I have been in that place for many years with the death of my parents and a divorce but now…. I feel I have conquered my fears… grown through them and changed accordingly.
    Things are not certainly what they were…. and you may remember I also lost my Wei … Nina Riki. A couple of years ago which devasted me… but…. I live in a campervan right next to a lovely beach and can pack up amytime with my new pooch by mu side… I am not even wanting a partner at this stage for I feel it may complicate my life.

    I have reached a new awareness and a bit of peace comes with that.
    My children have grown up.. and I see them often but it is certainly different.

    I have found my paradise and the love and friendship of my rescue dog.
    My priorities are simply walks… dinner..a little cleaning… maybe a swim and spending time with my pooch or playing guitar.

    I am no longer sweating the small stuff.

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  13. David
    David says:

    Hi there… as I shared on facebook…. I feel that I am coming out the other side… I have been in that place for many years with the death of my parents and a divorce but now…. I feel I have conquered my fears… grown through them and changed accordingly.
    Things are not certainly what they were…. and you may remember I also lost my Wei … Nina Riki. A couple of years ago which devasted me… but…. I live in a campervan right next to a lovely beach and can pack up amytime with my new pooch by mu side… I am not even wanting a partner at this stage for I feel it may complicate my life.

    I have reached a new awareness and a bit of peace comes with that.
    My children have grown up.. and I see them often but it is certainly different.

    I have found my paradise and the love and friendship of my rescue dog.
    My priorities are simply walks… dinner..a little cleaning… maybe a swim and spending time with my pooch or playing guitar.

    I am no longer sweating the small stuff.

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  14. Leonie
    Leonie says:

    Dear Danielle,
    Thank you for your wonderfull words. I see a change in the world, the Netherlands where I live is groing. I see people buying things that are, what we like to call green. It means that animals are kept better, things are made with less plastic and are more sustaneble. We are not there yet and still have a long way to go. I look at that change and I hope many others will to. Because trust and faith is what gives people confidance, and whith confidance comes groth. I wish you and your loved ones a merry christmas and a happy new year. Leonie

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  15. Leslie
    Leslie says:

    Thank you for this post Danielle-I was just now catching up on my email and read it. Feeling a bit off course and a bit sad is so true. It is hard to pinpoint the reason but for myself I see it as a season of growth and a way to embrace what is to come. I guess this is our soul telling us to prepare for a new chapter and to be patient-treat ourselves with compassion and forgiveness.

    Sending blessings to you, Danielle, and all others who read your posts. Thank you for sharing all of your thoughts.

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  16. Sherry ZWICK
    Sherry ZWICK says:

    Hi Danielle- thanks for your emails. They make a difference for me. I HAD to respond to this one. YES, to feeling wonky, I even woke up literally sick to my stomach after dreaming lay night/ this am. And yes the election and other events have had an impact that is challenging to deal with. I find it more difficult to be around some people, even old friends. I have stopped with the news on tv or the Internet. It helps, but “things are different”, I am different – feeling unsettled, even have bouts of vertigo now.I have a peaceful environment at home and take the rv and get away completely sometimes. But “reality”is still there and I feel it closing in like doom…mostly connected with the election results. Intellectually I know “it’s working and this is how it looks right now” and even have experience with that being so and having powerful contexts. Tough shaking the weirdness and doom and gloom.

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